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This blog of mine has collected dust totally.. I've been busy since e hols.. and of course, lazy to update.. I've manage to accomplish most of what I wanted to do during hols except for playin vb n exercising. . Alot has happened this year.. I celebrated by 21st in April (but i've yet to get my og celebration photos) then it was the hols.. I found work at LA in great world.. Its really an experience doing retail.. I think i've been pretty much 'pampered' with all those office jobs in the past.. But i'll prefer sitting down and earning more anytime =x

Soon, its time for the new school term. We had our hall FOC, DnD, JCRC elections and its now recess break already!! *Screams in horrror* Time jus flew past.. Money flew away too.. from all the daily expenses, presents, etc.. =( I have't been shopping since the hols but its time to go out get some stuffs for myself..

I was watching Marley and me today.. I know it has been out for very long but I didn't have time to watch it.. Cried like noboday's business =( Marley died! It is so sad.. But its such a nice movie.. It brought me to think about life yet again.. How precious my family and friends are to me.. What happens when someone close to me passed away.. N i was jus thinking: I DON'T WANT THAT TO HAPPEN!! Sighs..  but Marley and me brought out the brutality of life.. 生老病死。。Everyone goes through the suffering of birth, old age, sickness and eventually, death.. I guess when some has fullfilled their life's mission they will go away happy.. and my dad use to say that after you die, it will be another journery.. Exciting and new.. But with the view point of the one being left behind, i dun wannn.... *whines* I guess i will know what I have to do when such times come.. but I will make sure my family members and friends feels treasured and loved.. I will do my best..

Till then..

Current Location: 63-06-1272
Current Mood: indescribable

ohh!! i hate it!!! i am not getting enough sleep and am suddenly getting emoooo... sighs.. i hate myself sometimes coz i always do this.. there are things i guess i have to get used to.. afterall.. what is expected of one is expected of the other.. be confident ... stupid gal.. grrr...

The hols have gone by for quite some time... And i think its time to put up my list of things i wan to accomplish!

1) Get a job!
     - and yes i have been trying hard.. looking out for opportunities and sending in my resume.. its getting rather demoralizing..
     - this is of top of the list coz I need a job badly.. Need to make sure I can survive next semester, plus hostel bills, on my own..
2) Learn the keyboard
     - Its high time i put the keyboard at my house to good use.. Waiting for a book in bras basah to be restocked and I shall start my forage into the world of music.
3) Go clubbing/pubbing with the gals at least once during this hols.
     - its not something i must do but i wish to do.. I wish to break my parents out of their 'my gal is still little' mindset.. I told my dad.. 'Although i've grown up, I still love you' Its v puzzling tt I cannot do many many things that peers my age are.
4) Read
    - There are tons of books and materials frm Gakkai, plus my favourite story books... So many to read.. i want to pick up e habit again
5) Exercise
    - Been gaining mass.. =s but weight still normal.. guess I have to keep healthy! >.< I wan slimmer legs!!! same as rf!! >.<
    - the downside of slimming down: your bust size will go down too.. booo..
6) Go sentosa/play vb
    - as long as i get to play vb i think i'm happy =x

OK! Thats all for now.. will update of coz if there is more!! =D

Current Mood: blah

Well, the title was inspired by my msn nick. Edited by Man.. It was the irony of life but when looked closely at the situation around me, it is instead, the irony of love. This week was just filled by things love related and not one is really positive. I wanted to blog only after exams but i guess it s so overwhelming that I just want to get it out.

It all started after the heartbreaking and horribly ugly breakup somewhere in hall. Ok it is nt exactly ugly but it wasn't handled properly by the guy. And in alot of our eyes he is the ever loving boyfriend.. It wasn't my relationship that ended but I'm so heartbroken. Maybe I should not have judged in the first place. What allows me to judge others in relationship? A relationship is entirely between the 2 parties involved and no one else. But I still don't agree with what the guy did. He did not consider the girl at all.

Next was a beloved. Their relationship was nt smooth sailing and once in a while, there will be some inability for them to connect to each other, a little like the internet connection in hall. Soon, breaking point came. Luckily they handled it well. I so hope they won't go through this so often. Its heart wrenching to see. I can only be there to buffer. Like a buffer solution, I can only neutralise this much extra acid/base. Rest is up to them. And I hope they wil be happy.

Then i got an msn message. She has left. They were not together in the first place but they did a lot of things together. Rather he did alot of things for her and helped her pull through what should be the darkest moment of her life. But her walking out of his life means they are really not for each oher.

'You are the perfect girl any guy could have.. I was fortunate to have had been with you but too foolish to have let you go. Countless sleepless nights. Thanks for having been the rainbow in my life.. '

Its really sweet. But it is also the past. A past, a hurt, that has been left behind in the pursuit of a better and happier future.

Another future is looming. Will all the outcomes be the same?

As I was typing this, I receive yet another possible impending break up. Is this heartbreak season or what?! =s

From a gal's point of view. How do you judge if a guy is right for you? How do you know if he will treat you right, love you as you are, work hard together with you and face all obstacles together for the rest of your life? How do you know if he is willing now till the end of the path of life. Definitely most of us are at an age too young to be marrying. But wanting to be attached means you at least have a thought of settling down with your partner. IF things work out. BUT no one have any answers for the questions above. Talk is cheap. It is purely blind faith and trust that you have chosen the correct person to love and do your very best to keep the love alive. And the two of you will undergo the test of time. What happens if there is a cross-road and a choice is to be made? Do you contiue keeping faith without a second thought? Do you think hard and long about it and make a choice? Whatever you choose, will you regret? At points like this, different people will make different choices. Do we judge them? No. There might come a time where you will be the one making that decision. Then will you understand how difficult is this decision that is to be made.

Love. So vague, yet something so sweet and sought by everyone in the world. Where will you find yours?

Current Mood: crushed

I met the girls today.. or rather yesterday.. 2nd April.. They said '你瘦了'. =s i'm not sure to be happy or upset. But if i'm sliming healthily i'll be happy. If not, its a worry..

Anyway, I had fun yest. I haven't met the girls all together yesterday and i am so glad for this chance.. Happy =)

许渊铭！！=p

Current Mood: contemplative

Seriously, i don't have a topic to talk about today. But I feel like blogging something serious. Maybe because, after I turn 21, I am no longer a juvenile. >.< And 21 is just days away. So i have to ge serious or something. Maybe because today started off serious.. but it matters not.. I will not bore with some random serious stuffs..

 I feel like posting photos. My evolution. heh. But not is not the time. Mayebe after exams (do remind me) I should do a photo timeline of me through the years. oh wells.. I'm in such a 'i don't want to do anything but daydream' mode.

Today, I did something special. I went to meet Mina, my korean friend, as she very excitedly asked if we want to have dinner together with her at downtown east. I just couldn't reject. So I went and had shu yee come along. And... I met  Hoya and his partner, Eric. They are really nice people. We had dinner at BBQ chicken (they ordered just alot of things but I had to be polite and not sua ku and so I didn't take pictures). They wanted to know the singaporean opinion of the place, menu, food, affordability, etc. So I tasted, looked and gave my opinion. It was quite fun. That guy Hoya can cook can? Next time, I shall go to the outlet he is managing (West plaza) with Mina and a few more friends just to visit him and let him cook for us. Hee. He said he would and so we should really go. Anyway, I liked the way they obtain information and their friendliness. Its like a really good way to do business.

 

and so i shall study... =X

YES! I baked! =pPp its a easy one.. and after baking i made my parents pose with the muffins.. And they readily agreed. (now you know where my once in a while and my sister's full fledge narcissism comes from) And they are super cute! I shall let the pictures do the talking. For after all, a picture is worth more than a thousand words. =p




cute right???




Loves!!

This is a cow if you can't tell. I took this at my tutee's place which is in Savannah condo. The whole place is dimly lit, wind blowing, can you imagine how errie things are there? Lol.. Scary? Kinda.. Esp if you are there alone and waiting for someone to pick you up..



This looks like some albino tree.. But its taken in NTU right oppisite hall 13.. quite nice.. feels a little like some Savannah...

Due to comments that I blogged only once in a blue moon, i've decided to blog today. So that there will be more blue moons. =p

I think i shld talk abt cny right? coz... something intereting happened at FOC appreciation dinner where we had Lo Hei. So unexpected that I'm at a loss for words immediately after it happened.



This looked normal enough.. But Jonathan was actually flinging the ingredients across the table, straight into the face of the one who is opposite. Unfortuanlly, that is Johnny. =x

The end result:

 
!!!!!!

What a mess! Some photos from that day

Qiqi dun want to smile!!!



Eugene looks kinda funny but Gen's pretty...


Same for them.. Le le looks kinda funny.. Qiqi's pretty.. =x


The guys!! Ok.. NT all are from Athena.. but its the festives.. Who cares?


Chopsticks!! We are hungry... Not.. We ate way too much.. (its a buffet)



Last but not the least.. With my beloved neighbour! hee..

Oh ya.. We ate at Family international buffet at taka.. Its really not nice, over rater, not worth it.. =( But least tis fun with the company.. =)

Current Mood: okay

Today's SD 25th anniersary celebration.. I can say I learn alot today =x I learnt about the peace proposal written by Dr Daisaku Ikeda. He writes one every year from 1983 to the UN. His suggestion, I would say, is relevant and targeted at the current times. Its refereshing to learn something new. Plus, Vu is right beside me. I guessed his aura rubbed off. He's a very positive person and always learning wherever he is. I like it and it makes me sit up and learn tgt. =) Mina and Shu Yee and Ivanare here today too and they liked it pretty much. Maybe coz the meeting touched on an important topic, peace.

Most exciting of all!! RF came and she sat beside ME! haha.. and she came with harry whom i accidently called 'happy' in my sms =.= ... I was so happy to see her.. didn't manage to catch my other 2 beloved gals.. but soon soon.. =)

Love you all..

Today! The people of United States saw the inauguration of Barack Obama as the 44th President of the United States..  and so did everyone else all over the world in their respective time zone.. Rather, even here in school, people stayed up to watch the inauguration live on 21Jan 01:00. I think thats pretty cool. I've been keeping up with the news myself as the inauguration draws near. Just reading and trying very hard not to judge because of the hype over Obama. It was a pretty tough thing to do because after reading, all you feel like is to join in the celebration and go gaga over the fact that it is, although not a bright year but it will be promising.

I think he inspired hope in me. Hope that the wars will stop. Hope that the States will be more humanistic towards fellow occupants of the globe. True that Singapore is not on the receiving end of all the wrath from the US, but i do feel for the people of countries that are involved in the war. War is evil. It is not a necessary evil I believe. I may be idealistic. But if only war isn't even on the choices one can make to resolve issues.. =.=

I think my entry is rather abrupt today..  Just sort of random =x

Current Mood: hopeful

I'm now back in hall.. And the new semester starts the tomorrow.. *traumatied* Wells.. Hope this new sem will be a good one.. Lets work hard..

As I came back to hall today.. The contrast between now and the holidays was so huge. The place is so lively.. I see doors opening and closing, ligh emitted from the rooms, people walking here and there, people gathering around in their friend's room, people talking.. It is so different from the Interhall games period where all the doors are closed and it was really quiet.. Roomie just went ot for supper and its bedtime for me..

Sweet dreams!

Current Mood: dorky

On the 20th Dec marks a super important day.. For me and for him.. But we had meeting that day.. Him the young lion general meeting... Me the discussion meeting.. A little disappointing but we made do.. So we celebrated on the 21st instead..

Beware.. Huge number of photos ahead!

We met @11.. no.. 1130.. at clarke quay.. and we had lunch at the food court in Central.. Don't say its not romantic.. The view there is wonderful =D


This looks a but emo la.. But i think its really nice =)


Then as we shop around Central and just nice.. we got to watch this ice skating performance right in Central itself.. Apparently part of their marketing plan to attract customers.. They even invited ice skating champion of Australia (the guy in the picture). The best gal and guy are those 2 in the picture. They are indeed marvelous.

While waiting for the show to start, we had about 10 minutes.. And guess what? He was pulled into Charles and Keith with me and i start looking at shades.. I wanted shades for oh so long and he has got his oklays one alr.. and we decided on a white metal frame..


 TA-DAAAA!!
 

Lovey dovey


ME

    

HIM


630 and in e go to Wild Rockets..

After making our orders, we took more photos

of the bread..



The yellow thing is some oil.. Quite nice but nothing special other than th fact that the dip is oil.. We were trying to decide if this is a 'hands' food or 'fork food'.. its pretty funny..

And we both chose our wine.. His red and mine white.. To match our main dish



The light at the table...

  ---------->   

Cool huh??

Here comes the food...

 
This is mine.. The laska.. and i was thinking.. WHY is it green!!! I couldn't figure out what is it.. but the tiger prawns are really succulent..

Here's his..


Salmon.. His favourite.. This is not bad too..

The thing about these 2 dishes is that it is nice... but very different from what we are used to. The taste is unique.. hmm..

                       loves...             

lalala.. Here comes deserts..


lava cake plus vanilia ice cream... yumm!!!


This is also one of their famour deserts... so so only thou.. tiramisu powder is nice.. but my dear can't really take it coz its so powdery.. will accidently breathe in n cough *hic*

=D

It was a really wonderful day and filled with love.. 






 

Current Mood: loved

cold.. weather's cold.. makes my heart feels cold... all i wish for now is a pullover.. warm n cozy.. dreams..

these few days have been really slack.. i hardly use my brains at all.. which is good coz it gives me time to think abeit without conclusions. but tts alright.. reflection time..

Few things i need to rmb to do.. email bates abt 214 and ronald abt HW.. start on my mini project for D day.. must figure out the character first.. maybe i should start study jap too..ehh.. arrange for clubbing on wed with the girls, say, 10 or 17.. prepare materials and write up for zalankai youth topic.. call members..

I guess thats all.. tml's.. oh rather, today's e day for SD kenshu.. i shld go sp alr.. zzz

Current Mood: depressed

Its only 10pm now and i'm so so tired.. exams are just over.. I cleared everything in a week so there is this little feeling of exhaustion.. After my exams, i went for exam daimokukai.. didn't see anyone.. so left early.. Anyway, now that I've started my hols, I'm going to start my gakkai activities in earnest.. I want to encourage my members. If i put in the effort, I can make discussion meetings interesting, share alot of interesting things with members and friends. I can accomplish things. All i need now is the confidence and the perseverance to see my plans through.

But for today, I'm so exhausted.. I went to the library to borrow books.. origami, blibography, fiction and finace..4 types to read and self entertain.. Then i went to buy things for my roomie n myself... then i came back.. to ack my ever mesy table and for once, it is uber neat.. After that talked to cong yan who happened to pass by... then think of how to draw kevin's card... I'm nt v artistic.. so ya... quite simple.. I want to clean the fan coz there's no one to clean for me n my roomie.. boo! there's 2 session of driving tml. fri. week after.. for 5 days straight.. then starts some course in school for a week.. After which inter hall starts.. Hope all goes well.. for now i'm just tired...

by the time i post this up, its 20th alr.. so happy anniversary dear!! =D

Alex started work already.. Also busy with gakkai.. So i just have to keep myself as busy.. So like tt won't always hav to look for him when he is alr so busy.. back to the routine that we are both happy with.. signing off for now.. prob going to bed or ti read m book.. emo day..

Current Mood: depressed

It has really been a long long time since i blogged. Life is not exactly good. but it isn't bad either. This sem passed really fast and i'm now into the last 1 month of my 2nd year 1st sem. Exams are coming and I'm in a mess coz of that. But studies aside, everything's ok. I'm now learning how to drive! Whee.. Soon, I'll get my lisence and drive my family and myself around. Alex is getting his soon too so its cool. 2 excited soon-to-be-adults. =p But my lessons will be put on hold as of next week because of exams. Then I'll start again. Hope to be able to pass it 1st time =D and hope it will be before chinese new year.

Another good news is that Alex is going to offically ORD soon! Finally out of army.. I think the feeling must be super good. lalalax.. Just went to his parade with a friend of his. I got to take a photo with him in no.1!!! just super shuai. =)

One more piece of good news.. my aunt in the US is coming back for CNY! She just skyped me n ya i'm into overdrive.. so exciting..

BUT.. I think i need to get back to studying already.. mid-terms sux big time =( but hall life is great.. haha..

Current Mood: dorky

AHH! I'm having complaints coz i'm not blogging enough.. haha.. Life can't be said to be smooth sailing. I'm managing my time better nowadays though. Super packed with CFG and Fri Ren and sch last week. Now that fri ren is over at least i can slow down a little bit and work on my studies. CFG is 2 weeks away and i had a really exhausting meeting today with the cultural committee. . Does not concern the emcee but ya.. more is being done now for school.. mid terms are coming fast and furious. . and i'm gaining weight.. wootz..

Good news is that i'm going to play vb tml! and prob run at night if i'm up to it. plus! i'm going to start my practical lessons after CFG is over. yay!

Just went for DnD.. it was fun.. Boon was 2nd for pagent.. wasted that he lost by a few points. But i guess it can't be helped.. It was fun and food was not bad.. I was so full at the end thou e guys said they didn't hav enough and are still hungry.. wahaha.. poor things..

NOT in a good mood.. MOODY... SO many things to do... NO one is helpin... rather.. it may b because NO one can help.. BUT I dunno y am i frustrated somehow.. I've became a WHINEY SPOILT BRAT